Verse 0.0.4 – The Chart and its Sacred Curve
How do we think of time. It is personal to our life. The time of this life is all we have. Much will come after, but that is no longer you. You will be gone.
You were born. You will die.
You live now with as much fulfillment as you can each moment. Fulfillment is not infinite. You will be no more alive than giving birth as you jump out of a plane skydiving, having just heard you won a prize recognizing you as the best human of the century for your work in rescuing the entire planet. Certainly no more fulfilled than that.
Hopefully you’ve a bunch of life left in which you can continue to feel fulfilled. Your totality will be the area under the curve as your life is graphed, L/t. Your opportunity now is figuring out how to sustain L’>0, or for the enlightened, L”>0. You can live. To the degree you sustain a lower L over time, you are dying – having missed area under that curve. Length of life is a factor, but total area is the truth.
You are living through moments that never come again. Written durably into the cosmic blockchain. Even now you are spending time here, it may not be your greatest opportunity.
Maybe stop now if only for a minute, and go kiss them once more.
Your morality is determined by your choice to not waste this gift given, to fulfill your life. Your sin is to deny that. To steal away the opportunity for others to fulfill is certainly sin. Contra what you have been taught, such that you behave, to ensure that you fulfill your life is as noble as ensuring another. To ensure both is clearly more noble. We should change how we think about altruism and it’s current interpretation of self-abnegation. It is as moral to lift yourself up as any other. I do not yet understand why the denial of this is so strong in my culture; perhaps I don’t want to know the answer.
But what I want you to know the most, is that because of all this, the time you spent with me was sacred. To lose those moments to us: a sacrament you bestowed upon me.
Thank you for your time.